Sorry everyone, but please don't expect much updates for me for now. Cause my connection has been trying to manja with me lately. It'll be a sport, then it'll merajuk. :( Please don't merajuk, sayang. (

So.. I need to finish this post. :D

Sports day was awesome. Thank you Win, Mini, Aisyah, Ganga, Hannan and of course Saxophonists- not forgetting the teachers (For giving me special treatment) And Ms Cheryl. So our performance was awesome. Cheer was awesome. Though I scraped my knee badly by jumping in front of Lynette and for being a dumbass that I am... I scraped it in the same place as the last time. So twice in one week- on the same spot, my knee has kissed the road. Who can break up the affair of the knee cap and tar road?

Runners.. Well, I guess I sorta rooted for Clare this year. I've been keeping up with updates of their runners and stuff. So... :) Good stuff la, you guys. Junior team got some schema or shit.. I don't know but seemed pretty interesting. Then A&W. :)

Yeap, A&W. Went with Shan, Annabelle, Clare and the saxes, Sonia and Nicole. A lot of other people were there la. But didn't sit with us. The journey there was just flooded with racist jokes (ESTHER!) and laughter. When we reached there, it was like normal la. But crowded, so we had to split tables :( But met again eventually.

I think the pics are with Kamini. You should check it out. :D kk Sports day. Byeeee, before my connection merajuk. :D I love you Internet :)

10:46 PM

I just wanna thank God that everything worked out today. =D the weather was good, everyone could make it, everyone was well, aiya. everything la. xD I wanna thank all the band members too! omg. this day would NOT have been so awesome if not for ya'll. for some reason, am proud of ya'll. haha, love all of you too, great job! =D

the formation was not too bad. wasnt perfect, but ahh, who cares la. everyone said you all sounded awesome. xD i hope my tempos were all okay, sorry la if anything was too fast. =/

i couldn't help but be all smiles la when we played hujan after the whole thing. it was just SO syok sendiri. XD i dunno about you, but i just loved this year's sports day. was fun for some reason. =D happy happy happy after formation finished. xD

-win. ^^

9:45 PM

So EVERYONE is pissed off. == Yes... EVERYONE. I tihnk the sun just because so hot today that everyone is mad at the grass, the mud, each other, the sky the EVERYTHING LA... Oh Lord PLEASE grant us some kinda.. Cloud for a while. If everyday is going to be like this.. Everyone po for nothing, I'm gonna go NUTS.

11:18 PM

Sorry, I'm caught in train of thought. This is like mass posting while my Internet is on. (BECAUSE IT SMELLS LIKE BACKSIDE!)

So I found a bunch of mysterious scratches on my arms and torso. NO idea where the hell that came from. So I guess I would quote Adrian xD,"If you sleep with an itchy backside, you wake up with a smelly finger"

How does that make sense?
I cannot believe I quoted him for this observation

When you sleep, everything is overlooked. And what you see the next day, is only the remains or the ruins of what you have done. I know this is a bit... Cliche but...

What if we spend our whole lives asleep? We overlook everything (Like me- lol) and have our frontal lobes DETACHED from our amygdala that we can't make choices anymore. Everything is as unimportant as the other. And as soon as we don't care, we have fallen asleep!

Apologies once again, this is more of an epiphany for me that to enlighten you.

There was one guy who had a brain tumour. His name is Elliot. He was pretty alright after surgery and stuff except for the fact that several conenctions from his frontal lobe of his brain (where you rationalize everything) and his amygdala (The feeling, emotiony part) were severed. He was perfectly normal then... But he couldn't make decisions. He couldn't rationalise or justify anything cause nothing MEANT anything to him.

Conclusion: Progression of mankind is NOT Mr. Spock.
Which kinda sucks.. Cause I thought we'd be like Star Trek. :/

But what can we do to progress? I have no idea. Emotions play such a big part in our life, but once we get caught up in it- it makes you... EMO. == I mean... Like.. Overeact la. Maaaannn... I think once you can achieve that balance in impartial decision making and not being emo and annoying. :) Feel for yourself, empathize.. But don't CRY over EVERYONES little problems. Grrr... So now, everyone's emo because they are under stress. Please make the right decisions. I love you Aisyah, don't quit being our section leader!

9:44 PM

Marching on to the light,
There was a great warrior,
She knows no fear; she knows no weakness,
'Till came a time,
A cancer took her and wiped all she knew,
Though not a memory abides in her,
Her heart floods with love towards those around her,
Unaware of who they are,
She knows the look of love the eyes of those surrounding her.

She must have had no heart to face you.
You would weep,
They hindered secrets,
To keep you from a broken heart.
For now the time is here to face the truth,
All is shattered; all is loss
But to know her state of grace; her strength,
A memory of her is all that is needed,
For the will to strive on,
And live,
With yet another knowledge-
That she is still within you.

This post is another dedication... Sorry if you don't read it but note that we may never feel what you feel, but we know the severity of it. If that even is a word. We love you and her a LOT. And we'll DEFINITELY standby you no matter what. So take some time, take a breather- whatever you need. We'll even be there to get it for you. I know you're probably not alright right now. But you will be because you know she's in a better place. At that moment, she may not have remembered you. But you know where she is now, all she can ever think about is you. Think of it as a good thing then, an end to her suffering, a beginning of something new. For both you and her. That strong lady took it better than any man could, so right now- just be proud of that. We in turn are proud of you. Carry on then, a different approach to life since you know you can't avoid the impact of this loss. But know that there is always hope for the best at the end of the day.

7:07 PM

This is the 600th post on SSV! :D

So this ain't a theory this is my story. xD

Kamini's good day, bad day is evident in my week right now.

It's been such a good week that... God has been nice enough to give me SOME reason to smile when all else fails. Other than that... It sucked. Wanna know why?

You're reading, so you do.

Too bad, you've read this far already!

Mm mhmm... Problems. Friends. Someone from church, someone from school. I've never had problems with anyone from school before. Not like this la. The cari pasal ones not counted, they deserve it cause they dumb. :p But this person is smart la. I guess it's all my fault. But I wish there's something I can do. :(

Family. Hahahah... I'm not even gonna try explaining it here.

Church. Well not really church. Concert. I need time to learn the friggin solos. Time... SOUND. I don't know the damned songs! My sound card is gone. Meaning, I have to learn them week in, week out and REMEMBER them! Oh wow... I need you Mr. Dad to help me with this!!

Studies. Teachers, Toh cari pasal before this.But I guess now we're cool. But.. studying itself la. Babi hutan- I don't know what to do d. Justin and Yuan have thought me Math on Sat. (Thank you SOOO SOO much!) BM Martita did everything d. All I have to do is read. Karangan die la. But everything else is all a WEIRD, UNKNOWN shade of grey.

But above all these problems, I have my class mates. Justin and Yuan. My sister. And all of that la... This is a post of gratitude I guess to everyone who's helped me in whatever way. Even if its just listening. I've been so down, it's just amazing. And i'm never sad. I don't know how to tell people that I'm just going through a tough time and it'll shape up. I've been trying not to cry for the past few days. And I haven't. Fine, I'm not crying about my studies. But my family and friends concern me the most. Cause my concert also I have time after exam and stuff to solve my problems. But... I don't know what to do la now. I really don't.

Now, please excuse me while I kiss the sky.

5:59 PM

Counting the tiles on the ceiling,
Aimlessly, the clock ticks on...
Stride with passion,
Channeling... To nothing.
Yet, the clock ticks on.

Knowingly; Ignorantly,
Overlooking flaws, our weaknesses...
The clock ticks and tocks.
Mistakes, you've bore the marks.
The clock- is about to stop!
Disappointment; Dismay.

Confront you must,
For the greater good,
Leaving the outcome to itself.
Leaving us- in tears,
Only because we care for the other.
You've pointed us to the right.

For too long have you fought for us,
For too long have we let you down,
For too long have you taken the fall,
For it was us along who were wrong.

To Kamini, the best principal and an even better president
Thank you- so, so much. Of course, an apology too for all we've done wrong
You are not only a band member to us- but a brilliant friend indeed

12:27 AM

c001. Real name → Cheryl Lee!
002. Nickname(s)→ Abugee, Tissue, Sai Lei QQ Zhu and.. yeah. xD
003. Zodiac sign → Capricorn. I still don't see the significance.
005. Male or female → Female
006. Elementary → Assuntaaa ==
007. Middle School → Assunta...
008. High School → Assunta. yerrness.. I'm an assuntarian. O.o
009. College School → Prayerfully Berklee =D
010. Hair color → Black- I hope
011. Long or short → In between.
012. Loud or Quiet → Loud. :)
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans, I heat sweats.
014. Phone or Camera → Phone! :D
015. Health freak → I'm aiming to kill myself before I get old.
016. Drink or Smoke? → Only Shandi. Not counted. Lol.
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → Yes, but I'm not proud of it- though the WHOLE world knows. xD
o055. Waiting for → The guys to come back from COD. Then we're gonna have dinner

FUTURE:
058. Want kids?→ See how la. I guess now.
059. Want to get married? → I guess so?
060. Careers in mind → Something to do with music and psychology. Maybe even anthropology.

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
068. Lips or eyes → Eyes.
070. Shorter or taller? → Taller, pleaaaseeee...
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Doesn't matter to me. So long he's mengada.
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → I like skinny people so... It's kinda both but neither. xD
074. Sensitive or loud→ Loud. xD PLEASE don't be sensitive. :p
075. Hook-up or relationship → If I say hook up it'll be disturbing at my age kan?
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → Hesitant, but be a man la.

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → My glasses have fallen in the bathroom too.
081. Ran away from home → Nope.
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → Nope. In games la. xD
083. Killed somebody → Cod?
084. Broken someone's heart → ... I think so. Though I hope not.
085. Been arrested → Nope, but I know who was ALMOST arrested. :p
087. Cried when someone died → Yeaahh.. I cry at every funeral I go to.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → No. Lol.
090. Miracles → Yes.
091. Love at first sight → First time only la. xD
092. Heaven → Yes.
093. Santa Claus → No :(
094 Tooth Fairy → No.
95. Kiss on the first date→ If we were friends before that, yeah.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
098. Is there somebody you want to be with now → Yeah? Who knows what he's doing ==
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → Yeap :)
099. Do you believe in God → Mmmmm hmmm..
Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.

I feel like I've done this before, so I'm not gonna tag OR change the format.

5:29 PM

Since everyone is doing the song of the week bla bla.. I wanna show you guys something old. Lol. But loveable. :) I'm not sure whether this is right cause I can't hear. But you tell me la. Lol. There's a line in here that's a quote from Sinbad. Wanna guess which? xD


Dream Theater - The Silent Man (Awake In Japan) - Watch today’s top amazing videos here

9:21 PM

Yes, I am AWARE (not blur :p) that I've been talking about conformity a lot. But I guess that's the main issue of society kan? And I didn't start because of that clucking girl by the way. xD But this is not the only question that will be answered once you've heard this, though its a lot of jargon- cause I read this shit up. :p

Mirror Neurons. :)

These two words answered almost all my questions.

"It did what DNA did for biology. Mirror Neurons for psychology"

What this shit is, is the thinggy in your brain (not scientifically proven in humans) but I proclaim it proven to everyone who says,"Omg, she's copying me" We've all had that moment where you feel copied. Being a stalker is one thing, mirror neurons are another.

How it was proven is that monkeys that live near the ocean (The beach la) eat potatoes. And the thing is, they don't like potatoes on the sand. (So yerr kan?) What happens is that one monkey washes it in the ocean and eats it. Another monkey nearby sees this-without talking-, and does exactly that. But maybe sometimes differed proving that two heads are definitely better than one. What this creates is a Meme

A meme is something passed from generation to generation. Whether its a stupid thing that people use like our very own,"CIMB". (no offence la, not stupid. Funny) So from Cacat Immature Mangkuk Babi it has become Cacing In My Butt. However this has ben preferred and now everyone is using it. That little lame flag thing Justin does? I spotted some form 1 girls doing it. What does this prove? One thing affects a person and a person affects yet ANOTHER person.

Conclusion: People= power. The direct translation of democracy.

Another issue in society:

There are too many you's

I'm sure we've all seen the "no backboned" freaks where they are this way with one group but totally different with another. This is because they're mirror neurons are more sensitive because of their will to follow and be a part of a meme.

Children learn by immitating. I would ASSUME (not science, Cheryl observation) that mirror neurons are more sensitive when they are younger as everything is. Personality constantly shifting. but when a person actually reaches a stage where they know which to follow and which not to, that person has an IDENTITY.

This is why older people are very hard to persuade and more desicive because of the things they are clled for in life. So a meme causes a gene. (again, not science. Me. xD) a personality is formed based on the memes he/she has followed, the characteristics of that individual is passed on to another person. And ta da... The bridge across the gap. :)

Let me know whether this has helped in anyway. :)

8:57 PM

So my musical block PARTIALLY went away. I can sudo write songs now. I just don't have the passion for anything now. O.o (Other than God, lol) Yeah, so I don't really have anything to write about. I can't even ask for ideas cause EVERY forum I went to says... You have to feel it. So I'll go along writing instrumental stuff then. Sounds pretty emo though. xD

Anyhoooo....

I was about to ask everyone HOW ABOUT A JAMMING SESSION? When I realized we just cancelled one. can we please reschedule that? :D Cause like... I need to take a breather. A moment of inspiration ESPECIALLY now that concert practice is here and... I just need something to kick in my semangat. If can play ONE of the songs on my recommendation list. :D Cause... I'm in need to play some... STUFF.

I had a funny dream actually. Some local woman singer asked me to play for her. Somehow, we were practicing in my bathroom. == I don't know why. But yeah. I would get electricuted but.. Nothing makes sense in my dreams. So, she asked me to play for her... And I SUCKED.. As in like... Suck la. xD And she looked at me and said,"You listen to Zepplin and stuff?" IMMEDIATELY, I was like.. Omgg.. I just memalukan nama Led Zepplin. :( We had a rhythm guitarist who I didn't really like. Kiasu like shit la. And at the end of the show (Which turned out really good) She came to tell us,"Hey, your Jonas Brother style (Indicating the mengada rhythm guitarist) meeting your Led Zepplin stuff (me. MUAHAHA) really actually worked. I can't believe it did!"

On the spot, I laughed my ass off. Cause she called him JONAS BROTHER while she called me LED ZEPPLIN. And he was kinda... Not to say bad but... He listens to pop stuff la. So his style one kind. But damn funny. xD I woke up laughing also. Cause.. You can guess who the rhythm guitarist is la :p And yeah. Funny. xD So no, I did not malukan name Led Zepplin- in my dream- I made them proud =D

I hope that's SOME kind of sign. :p Though Led Zepplin is such a random band to associate with me. I LOVE them, no doubt. But my playing style is not really influenced by them. My improvisation is.. But not overallyyyy... I guess. Omg. I am. O.o

I never realized, I play NOTHING like my inspiration. xD

Sorry for the rambling, sudden epiphany

8:41 PM