To Nicholas...

I'm not going to put anything in detailed here for obvious reasons, so bare with me if/ when you actually read this... I have known you all my bloody life. You better not do this to me. You lived 3 years of your life without knowing me damn you. Yeah sure, I only decided to acknowledge you as a person more than the "london-boy" as we used to call you in like... err... 2004-ish? When you, Firdaus and I took a stroll. Yeah, I won't forget that. I swear if you do anything FISHY, I will hunt you down whether you are already dead or not. I know I sound mean, but I am just worried. EXTREMELY... As I have told you, I know I am not too late. So I am telling you again, at least let me talk to you for one last time. Give me a chance to bring you to your senses. Thanks for letting me be the first to know and you have never really left me in discomfort. Yeah, you were a "london-boy" But SO?! I never failed to talk to you open-minded-ly.... I'm not accepting this as a last reply. I'm not going to accept your farewell. Nothing will happen. I have faith, so you better too! Stay strong.... At anytime... I'll be there for you. Just don't pull anything on me. Please, I beg of you. I'll find a way to pass you a reply tomorrow so I can write everything in detailed there. I'm so sorry if I have caused you to take action, I know I have not been that brilliant at talking to you. But I'll try harder anyway, for your sake. I'm not going to say goodbye.